Thursday, December 11, 2008

sainkoku and attention please

i like anime
i like jap dramas
but
i dunno jap
i dunno chinese

i relied on ENGLISH SUBS

i want to watch attention please special episode...that has a chinese subs.0_o oh wow...i m still watching it but i give up n turn to blogging instead to vent my anger...angry with myself for not learning chinese and not even trying to learn jap since i love to watch anything n everything to do with jap.and eat jap food too!
attention please






















the main actress is so damn cute and funny!

i watched sainkoku season 2 for 22 episodies onli!!!!!sobs i want to know the ending.but anyway i did google the plot and i know the ending d.haih but still,i want to see the process to the ending!!!i want to watch all episodes....
pics from sainkoku


















please pay attention to all those 'pretty' guys in the anime.hahahaha
somehow i still prefer season 1.maybe it's because i m missing a few episodes from season 2.tat does not mean tat season 2 is boring.it is still enjoyable to the certain extent.with me craving for all episodes -_-"


Wednesday, December 10, 2008

pollen drink is an acquired taste

health drinks are good for maintaining good health and flushing out toxins etc etc(this may not be true,i jus write wat i heard and knu).
so my parents with the best intention in their mind bought flower pollen for me during their vacation in vietnam.it is to be drank with warm/cold water.as i am still studying and far away from their eyes and care,they want me to have the best food and drink aka nutrients possible while still studying.hence flower pollen drink.
seriously it is an acquired taste.as my mom is goin about the virtues and taste of flower pollen while stirring the cup of pollen water,my eyes is transmitting to the brain the images tat looks freaking alot like fish food(the pollen).when i drink the solution,i feel like a bee or herbivore or insect...

of course i din look as happy as the pic above but it serves as illustration.i feel like a bee with a sting at my back.

As quoted directly from wikipedia,an article titled pollen in human diets....
A variety of producers have started selling pollen for human consumption, often marketed as a healthy food. Like many other foods, pollen contains water, amino acids, proteins, lipids, carbohydrates, minerals, vitamins, enzymes and other micronutrients. Composition depends on plant species collected by bees. Supplements of pollen have been used in a number of treatments, e.g. treatment of anemia, disorders of digestive system, mental disorders like depression, asthenia and alcohol dependence.geng rite?

then i found this: bee pollen contains essential fatty acids & amino acids & stimulates production of sexual hormones 0_o click here for more information and recipes of homemade drinks for natural energy booster

conclusion,pollen is apparently very good for ur health.so drink pollen!

and i so hate the taste and the drink.
on one side i knu it's good and i shud drink (like veggies,i knu i shud eat lots n lots of green veggies) on another side i dun like the taste (ewwwww....) so i was thinking,should i made a concentrated mixture of the pollens and gulp it in one go then quickly wash down the taste with lots of water and let my stomach do the stirring?or should i dilute the pollen until i cannot even taste it?
i just made pollen drinking sounds like medicine drinking.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

positive thinking and fruit flies can't be killed with mosquitoes' coil

must applied the power of positive thinking
yes i know we must be positive in life
so i am trying to change my take on pharmacy course
*crossing fingers at the back*
i love biopharm very much
i love drug and disease very much
i love pharmacy practise very much

healthcare courses are seriously damaging to health
oppps i shud say we must be strong in withstanding the challenges thrown to us by pharmacy course.

completely unrelated issues below.beware!

i have been having cravings for seriously bad food since i started sem 5.
one my cravings are fattening,disgustingly high-cholesterol,super duper salty,not-good-for-health junk food,with loads of msg which can cause hair to fall out potato chips.yet i m eating like nobody's business.now my list of grocery seems to include two packs of potato chips tat i managed to polish all by myself.i know we should not eat so much salt as it can cause alot of problems later on and yet i managed to add soya sauce to everything i eat!(completely unrelated but this is to explain the extent of my tolerance to saltiness which is terribly high!)
then i managed to eat ice-creams at every opportunities i went out.thank god my fridge is not that cold to store ice-cream if not i will be eating ice-cream as supper everyday!
people crave real food but i managed to be different by craving for maggie mee...my hair is seriously going to suffer the consequences.i shall say out loud.i love maggie mee very much!
spaghetti is my fav food of all time.today i managed to gobble down a big bowl of uz's lovely and tasty cooking of spaghetti.the sauce is made out of mushroom soup,brocolli,chicken ham,onions. yum! yum! yum!after eating,i managed to promptly fall asleep.how bad this can be towards my body?hahahaha but satisfaction and happiness ensured!
the most important craving i had since sem 5 started and not yet been satisfied...chili's burger and fries or carl's junior's burger and fries and i want the whole set!!!!please please please give me the opportunities to eat it soon!i don't care how expensive it is now.i want to eat!
~~~~~

after buggings from fruit flies or i wud say someone who couldn't stand them.we tried various methods to disinfect the house.
1)spraying air freshener (very obvious it doesn't work)
2)cleaning the whole house(well not really sure got effect or not...still got flies flying around)
3)lighting mosquitoes' coil(seriously seriously doesn't work and pointless and terribly smelly but it reminded me so much of my grandparent's house)

the onli method that haven been tested is using insect's spray.flies begone!
hahahahaha

note:i am used to this since intec due to the misfortune to be living on the second floor whereby the rubbish dump is just one floor directly under the balcony and no matter how much effort u put in to kill/chase away the fruit flies,it still come back like regular visitors along with cockroaches.after a while,i can't be bother with occassional burst of anger while studying by killing them(fruitflies!) with my hand.tat can't be said for cockroaches (still harbour hatred to cockroaches due to bedroom incident ish! they have to be destroyed at every opportunities possible with newspaper!).thank god it's different when i come to imu but sometimes those sneaky pests managed to climb up to 18th floor.shoo!shoo! go invade lower floors...dun go to upper floors.hahahahaha

Sunday, December 7, 2008

how did i managed to go through 3 weeks without me noticing?????

by being busy
week 1 arrive:busy,week 2 pass by in a blink of the eye:due to having too much fun,and week 3 is finishing...(at least spend time with family)

since beginning of sem 5,i feel tat my body and soul is draining.hectic-ness!!!not to mention lectures are poisons to our happiness.our subjects are so damn hard that i feel like squeezing the books into pulp and drinking it with the juice just so that i don't have to read it.who can manage to write all these without collapsing halfway????(wait...as youzhuan put in her blog and quoting one lecturer 'the equation is beautiful'....0_o i wan to collapse liao,please find me a bed/pillow so that i don't hurt my edi internally haemorrhaging brain)

biopharm is pure torturous.add maths is hard.but i survived.however,when faced with something that managed to combine physic,chem,bio and freaking add maths,i wud rather run now.in essence,i hated biopharm.always will and (i was about to add 'forever will' but but but) hopefully i will 'grow' to 'like' it.>_< crossing fingers.please refer to the above paragraph to knu the extent of hardness of biopharm.yes my brain is slowly leaking blood from all the lectures.

drugs and disease is a maze of drugs name and symptoms.there are ALOT of drugs name in the green book and it ain't cute.how the heck they managed to come out with those names?gee they are not the most creative lot.lecturers managed to do 'touch and go' while leaving me baffling at which page they are talking about.i still remember wat a lecturer said, 'u can read the drugs on ur own in ur green book ...' then proceeds to describe the disease...it doesn't help when lt2 are prone to have projector problems and we managed to hav lectures without slides.it's a miracle tat some of us managed to stay awake and pay attention.

then come pp.i m beginning to hate the letter p.thank god my name don't have any 'p' in it.enuf said.

oh yeah there's a thing called report writing whereby u r suppose to go and do lab report without directions watsoever.shit...i think i accidentally press delete button in my brain for the part that process statistic.the search box in my brain did not register any findings for 'statistic' program tat i learn in sem 2.
then journals journals journals!!!!!!!!!0_o(x100000000000000000)


Thursday, November 13, 2008

bizzare

my sleeping pattern is so bizzare that i couldn't even describe it.
i slept as late as 3 am yesterday and woke up at 7 am.which means i got 4 hours of sleep.i woke up and just basically could not get back to sleep.amazing!i think i am suffering with a whole new level of insomnia.
i could not do my stuff properly as it's still early in the morning.it defies logic to be able to do something with 4 hours of sleep.ok i did do some stuffs but i manage to screw them in one way or another.so to be safe,i decided to numb my mind with senseless tv and hoping that my mind will somehow wake up and decide to give itself a good whack of being so blur.
since my mind did just that,i decided to blog.
of course holiday is coming to an end.we are going to start sem 5 on monday.horror of the horrors!i can't believe i am in sem 5.(seems like i have been saying that since sem 3)
there's so much thing that i haven do yet.procrastination again!
*yawns*

will end this with conversation between body and mind 4

conversation between body and mind 4
body:eh,brain,u there?are u awake?
brain:*grumpily*ya
body:can u pls go back to sleep?i need rest,u knu
brain:yes i knu but how could i sleep?
body:u r the brain,so think of something lah!
brain:fine,i will wake up!!!so there!happy now?
body:*slaps its own mouth*

Sunday, November 9, 2008

pharm food for thought

i am bored.feel my brain is oozing out of my ears.need stimulation
online and facebook lor.

as i stumbled to a blog called mps uk student chapter blog *click mpsuscb to access*(from facebook mps group), there are a few links there that caught my eye.when a blog is called the blonde pharmacist or the angry pharmacist,it begs to be clicked on hahahaha.however, it can somehow induces boredom(basicali drugs and disease).
so when i started clicking a few sites,automatically i feel the urge to click all and read.i basicali sat in front of my laptop n read n read.i dun even read tat much during exam*rolls eyes*basically all blogs talk about being a pharmacist,the situation they faced in us/uk and the usual drugs with the signs and symptoms.
as i continue ploughing through because i have nothing better to do,i read a blog called dispensing with sanity.first i thought this is another blog by another pharmacist in us/uk/aus.however as i continue reading on,he's from malaysia.good.something tat i can identify with.although he tend to rant alot and complained about doctors and management/system (there's another article about dispensing separation but i forgot where i read it),the blog makes a good read.but who doesn't complains?tell me someone who did not complain from the day he/she is born(with exception of saints,monks,holy people),i will go and salute him/her.
does reading pharm blogs stimulate brain?
aka pharm food for thought (hence my title)
i shall not rattle on and continued with....

conversation between brain n body 3
brain:brain is bored dead.D-E-A-D
body:hurray!!!!hip hip hurray!!!!
brain:hey dun rejoice first,i am still alive lar!but bored to death...ish u all ungrateful ppl.i am the one that keep u all moving.i keep metabolism,chemical pathway (all the bullshit from rang and dale and pharmacology green books) etc etc working.without them,body cannot survive.(obviously very cheong hei)
body:*faints*oh no!!!!wat u r not dead ah?how come i duno one?
brain:of courselah.tat's bcos u got no brain mah!!!!

**edits**
kk,thanks for pointing out the mistake!it's not malaysian pharmaceutical society blog.it's actually MPS UK student chapter blog.i apologises for the mistake done.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

sketches~~

holiday got nothing to do so been sketching alot latelyi draw this when i am changing my phone theme.inspired by the butterfly theme,i draw a butterfly princess...

wish i can come out with a storyline to go with the picture but cannot think of any...

of course the butterflies are not as intricate or complicated.her stare looks like it can penetrate souls...

~bullshitting here~

then another one i got here is the one i plan to put as my profile picture in blogspot.my blogspot current theme is flowery with lots of petals.took pictures of it with my handphone.hence the bad quality but got special effects ^^ sepia tone.look more antique-y ^^


alot of sakura petals and curly curly lines ^^
cyik~~


Wednesday, November 5, 2008

what if?

What if we don’t have newspaper anymore? News are being broadcasted through television or radio and directly transmitted on the net. It is normal for people to receive news online. It is the fastest way to get information. With all the information at our fingertips, it’s easy to be updated all the time. Imagine...

In the future, newspapers are made obsolete. Every morning instead of turning newspaper pages and getting fingers dirty with all the lead, the humming computer or laptop is turned on. No more rustling sounds of pages turned, just click-click sounds that signals each web page that is being read.

Kopitiam no longer provides newspaper to their frequent customers. Instead a brand new laptop sits atop each table opened to the latest news forum or the hippest e-paper that hit the net. Customers order their drinks while browsing the net. As they leisurely enjoyed burning hot or ice cold tea/coffee while being engrossed in the latest story. Normal packets of nasi lemak and mee goring that are wrapped in newspaper are replaced by oil paper. No more reading last year’s news when eating our nation’s best loved food.

Suddenly there’s no electricity. It is not surprising as tnb can be very erratic and operate according to a woman’s mood. There’s no electricity to power computers and laptops. Customers grumbled. How do they receive news now?

cd/dvd,recycle?

With all the data in my laptop, the need to back up my data is tremendous. Besides putting data in my not-so-trusty hard drive, I rely on my dvd burner in my laptop to burn my data into dvds or cds for safe-keeping. Hence the amount of empty cds and dvds I buy to keep all files, big or small.

A program that I always feel reliable and easy to use to help me burn is nero express. It’s easy and fool-proof. Just add relevant files and click a few buttons and there you are, a cd or dvd encrypted with your datas!

However, the thing that annoy me most is when halfway through burning process, the burning process failed and I am forced to discard my wasted cd or dvd. I cannot burn another set of data into the cd or dvd which had encountered failed burning process. How I try to force my dvd burner to accept that cd or dvd, something will pop up to say that the cd or dvd is empty even though nothing is burned inside ie there are empty folders which equals to something is inside the cd or dvd.

So I have to use another new cd or dvd and discard my unused, half-burned-but-didn’t-hold-any-data-inside cd or dvd. This is wasteful with all the preaching of how we should recycle and preserve earth. I am aware of the issue but there’s no proper recycling centre in segamat where I can dispose these unwanted cds. Maybe there are but I am just not sure where and I think it will be very inconvenient for me to go there. I didn’t even know where if there is a recycling place for cds or dvds in kuala lumpur.

Am I not aware of the recycling and the earth issue? I am aware. Do I feel the need to do my part? Yes I do. Is it possible to do my part? It is possible but a tad difficult. I have already participated in recycling campaign and sweated over the effort of lugging heavy recyclable stuff to raise money and I know it’s hard work. If there’s something like that going on, I will be happily doing my part to collect all the recyclable stuff in my household to be recycled. Provided there’s someone who come and collect ^^

Saturday, November 1, 2008

postive thinking

yes i need to emphasize on positive thinking.
my ears won't get chronic inflammation.(said ALOT of times)
my ears are going to turn out fine(said ALOT of times)

think i am grossing ppl out.

now back on
conversation between mind and body 2 (more like mind and ears)
mind:ears,you do not get inflammed,i repeat,you do not get inflamed.
ears:i have no idea what you are talking about.
mind:i am telling u not to get inflammation!!!!rolls eyes for dramatic effect
ears:sorry can't hear u lalala~~ neurons breaking up.i repeat.neurons breaking up.
mind:argh!!!!
ears:(i just love screwing with mind kekekeke)

note:my ears are not inflammed yet.jus a bit sensitive.touch onli pain.but i accidentally touch it a few times...hope nothing happens.when i got nothing to do,my imagination overreacts.and i just realised i forgot all the process of inflammation d.blank nada canot even remember a single thing.the rough process oso forget.sei loh.so fast meh?

pics oh pics

my dilemma,multiply is very slow in uploading my pics...why?
is it my internet connections?
*bash streamyx*

i have been patiently waiting for an hour.
*bashing laptop*

now very agitated and sleepy and my ears very sensitive.
*bashing anything tat can be bash*

yes i am very irritated.

must change tune now.
my mom got binoculars from some event.when she showed me,i wailed,'why oh why u got binoculars.got wat else?'
'digital camera and pendrive'
'i want digital camera!'wails
'someone else got it'
'wat can u do with binocular?'
'oh my colleagues told me,"opposite ur house got house mah?use ur binoculars to see larrrrrrr'
*pengsans with laughter*

note:i dun wails...this is for dramatic effect.opposite my house is a road and a very beautiful house that is seldom occupied--->hence my binocular end up no use.only those people can think of those things to do.
another note:the binocular is very blur aso lo.no high resolution.canot really see properly.

Friday, October 31, 2008

pravsworld

reading thru blogs...yes i multitask ALOT.hahahaha
then saw this in sinye's blog




then google
www.pravsworld.com
http://www.pravsworld.com/new/my_quotes.htm
as i couldn't exactly get permission from him...then i just put his link up =) i know referencing!!!

i got a bad feeling the pics doesn't appear with this blog...i am not used to posting with pics...

old memories...

before i go to emo mood...something funny:i tried to type my blog with my home computer's keyboard instead of my laptop's keyboard.then i panicked for a while why there is nothing appearing on the screen.rupa-rupanya miss blur type using desktop's keyboard-_-" hahaha ya i am using my lappie now.not using my house main's dead-slow-cannot-open-facebook computer to online.

on kk trip,i forgot to mention goin to handicraft centre and buying pearls pearls lots of pearls and souvenirs!of course the pearls are cultivated pearls.not from sea but it's still pearls!hahahaha mom very happy ^^ of coz dad boa suan(daughter go spend money again)

towards emo stuff
*
*
*
so i have been goin thru 2007 pics as i am selecting those that i wan to print out.then i think back of the time.how i have change since then.did i grew up to be more mature?maybe,abit.did life teach me a lesson?yes ALOT.i learned that nothing is perfect.not even my life.and i should be grateful for my screwed up life bcos there are still others that are even worst.i treasure friends that stuck to me through thick n thin.they who accept me for who i am.

this is something i put on my laptop's backdrop.it helps me throught this journey called LIFE.
this world is not perfect.there are problems.but things like happiness and unhappiness are relative.realising this gives you hope.from dalai lama


then looking back at cheerleading photos...i still feel the spirit we had on that imu cup finale night.how different it is with this year.we are still juniors and we are so damn high.everybody is high.thirsty for blood.reaching for the top with all our souls.spartans forever!

of course imu cup...fond memories.still got imu charity run some more.how i manage sem 2 i din know...tennis tennis however hard we try but we still canot get pass our fourth placing.cry i still got cheerleading back in 2007.in 2008 i jus got tennis.the disappointment is indescribable.but behind every dark cloud,there is a silver lining.or should i say ironman

very random right???hahahahaha...

Thursday, October 30, 2008

kk trip

this is just random random random.it's been a week since kk trip and my thoughts are slipping from my brain.cue:no exam,no need brain.

touch down in airport,went out,no electricity.geng!in fact kk area is experiencing a black out that includes centropoint...hmmm no generator ah?

our condominium is so good.clean nice and location-wise,it's basically walking distance to everywhere.interested?we stayed in marina court.beside promenade hotel.just beside,there's one seafood restaurant.however,i didn't go try out.instead we went to a very expensive place called portview.it's very very very de expensive.(i went to another place called gaya seafood restaurant where only locals know as it's in the middle of somewhere,crabs plus prawns plus shells-dunno-wat-its-name plus absolute deliciousness and cost the same)

at the waterfront,there a line up of restaurants,bars and 1 club.quiet oops quite a cool place to hang out but it's a bit quiet there...not really alot of people and the price are cheaper compared to kl.very very very attractive to those who jus wants to enjoy a relaxing night with cool sea breeze.according to my father,it used to be very smelly there with lots of rubbishes in the sea.looks like it changed for the better!

on the second day we went to climb mt kk!ok not exactly climb first.we went to kaki bukit to rose guest house.like its namesake,there are lots of roses there.we went to poring hot spring and canopy walk.then at night we slept early to get up early to go to the gathering place where we start our climb.

climbing mt kk is truly an experience.i can see why my dad climbed mt kk 3 times(though now he said he's getting old and doesn't want to test his muscles).i climbed, paused, take in the scenery, climbed again.it's so breathtaking.all the muscles pain are worth it.it is also there,i experienced my first muscle cramp on the way to the peak.nearly cry with pain.i didn't take lots of photos also bcos of the stupid pain.but i did take in the scenery.the fresh mountain air with thin oxygen which doesn't really help much and just caused me to breathless.or is it my poor stamina?hahaha my sleeping hours got jumbled up up there too.slept at 8am wake up at 2am.then some more got a bunch of people outside making a racket of noise.feel like strangling them with my long john but i got no energy to move an inch.do not put muscle pain medication in cold weather.bad bad bad idea bcos ur whole body is so cold,u can't even sleep.although i don't have muscle pain,the cold cold cold is enough.

climbing down time is such a fast experience.by that time,my muscles are sending chemical signals to my brain about lack of oxygen and accumulation of lactic acid.each steps stimulates pain receptors.the entrance of the park where the bus gathers never look so beautiful before...

dirty us went back to kk to bath and rest.with jason in tow,we went to eat seafood!thanks alot jason!finishing off the night with a drink at the waterfront.

the early next morning,we went to manukan and sapi island.for those who don't want to go mountain climbing,this cannot be missed.the water is so clear and the beaches are so beautiful.i think it's the combination of small small islands that make the scenery so pretty.our guide are so good to give us tips and guides where to snorkell.of course those who snorkell are those who are so crazy they don't even feel the pain of climbing mt kk.

that's all i remember for the first 5 days.

the next 3 days,i have been eating seafood non-stop.everytime my father's friend said let's go makan,sure enough,there will be steamed prawns and crabs on the table.i eat so much crab/prawn that i feel like a crab/prawn myself.hahahahaha in fact i go vege for the next two days in my relative's house in keningau.not exactly vegan,coz i ate wantan mee with scrumptious dumplings and super duper soft duck meat in one coffee shop.deliciousness!went there for breakfast the next 2 days.hahahaha

another thing i love about sabah is their lemon tea.they put 5 freakin slices of lemon(real yellow lemon.not limau mind you).heavenly~~where can u find that in peninsular malaysia?

oh and the road from kk to keningau are very scenic also!feasting my eyes but unfortunately car sickness took over with mind-boogling effect(ie closing eyes trying to think of something else).

everyting is fine.jus not final

everything is fine.not final.(jason mraz)

totali understand that statement.how often did we come across something we really really really like but in the end change our mind towards it?worst,came to loathe it.

i am afraid making purchases eg clothes that makes me regret for wasting money and not wearing it bcos i hate it as soon as i brought it home.then what about those times when i listen to a song which i enjoyed for a short period of time but end up collecting dust when new songs came about?i used to read sense and sensibility,pride and prejudice but in the end,it stayed at the bottom of my book rack with cobwebs and other mementoes.how bout accessories that i never got to use or wear?money wasted oh the heartache.

of course there are some things that you just love forever.i never grew tired of my speed album.i even went to the extent of listening to their songs on youtube bcos i didn't bring it to kl.i love to reread harry potter books whenever i am back in sgmt.though i remember the storyline clearly but it's the small details that i enjoyed most.tshirt that i wear again and again just becos it's so comfy and suits me well.my mom used to tell me that i love to watch little mermaid over n over again.i jus din grow sick of tat movie even now.

just my random thoughts...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

aftermath of exams...stress free period!!!

the truth is ... i haven recover to my pre exam time body.
my body still manage to sleep early and wake up early (that is so not me k?)

how can a person be sleepy before 11 am????
i am amazed by my body's capabilities...

somebody told me if i learned ballet before...
sadly no
i m not musically inclined either.however i got long fingers 0_o does it mean i need to know how to play piano?

it's terribly hot once i got back to semenanjung malaysia.from wet wet wet sabah,i got myself wishing for rain back in segamat.

mr sun is not my friend.
i don't like sun.i don't mind being sun burn but it's the heatiness that got into my body after mr sun had its way.i don't want to be sick for holidays.no thank you very much.
in fact as i am typing this,it looks like it's goin to rain outside but still haven rain.if it's goin to rain,i hav to make a mad dash outside to collect my clothes which is still drying.
however i need to thank mr sun for drying my clothes...now i love mr sun *rolls eyes* yes sometimes i cannot make up my mind.

but do you know that from mr sun, there are harmful rays that can cause skin cancer?so people who want to sunbathe,please please please put alot of sun lotion.as high spf as possible.however i heard from a friend of mine (girl talk) it doesn't matter how much spf u hav,it's the plus sign u have to look out for.the more plus signs,the better it is.how does it had any different,i don't know but i lazy to google.

complains galore now.you are warned!
*
*
*
*
*
my wisdom TEETH are giving me trouble again.i think it's all the crabs n prawns i ate in sabah tat gives me alot of calcium (speculation onli).lo n behold,my partially hidden wisdom teeth got enough energy to push out of my gum to annoy the life out of me.so now my gum is very bengkak and i basicali swallowed my food.i hope i don't get indigestion or appenditis...i should hav pluck it out when i hav the chance.

very de sien hor...very very sibeh de sien
so read other people blogs
so far i read kk's,rachel's,wenyi's,ken's,xiaxue's,dawn yang's,mayzhee lim's blah blah blah
with jason mraz's being the latest
i shall end this blog with a sentence from jason mraz's blog
everything is fine.not FINAL

Thursday, October 16, 2008

conversation between mind and body

i just finish a very strenous,tiring and stressful!and i still survive!
really wants to thank those who had been there for me(you know who you are) and most importantly my family!!!
love love love u guys
muaks***

dd exam is so terrible that i got a headache from sitting for that exam.so me mind thinks chinyik should not go shopping,hence the staying at home and ordering in pizza with my bestie and trying to make sweet-steam-egg dessert (the dessert went well in the end but jus not nice looking.sobs)

been doing wat the whole day?mind terribly hyperactive...so go read ....deng deng deng ....blogs!i manage to squeeze in at least 5 blogs yesterday,read all their entries..geng ah,i studied aso not tat hiong.then squeeze in another movie,baby mama.it's really really really good and funny.

i slept even later than the time when i usually sleeps.now i know that i can wake up later,i happily slept at 2.30 am.mana tau, wake up 8.30am.... a conversation between my mind and my body ensues...

body:hey go back to sleep,i very tired lah
mind:i am wide awake d!faster wake up.let's do something useful today...
body:wat the...i don't want.i want to sleep!!!!waaaa exam so tiring
mind:but enough rest d mah,6 hours wor...
body:i am still aching!!!
mind:we survive on less than 5 hours these past few days
body:that time EXAM MAH!now no exam,wake up so early for wat?see sunrise?sunrise over d
mind:enough rest d lah...get up!
body:unwillingly gets up because ordered by the mind and cannot reject the central nervous stimulation from the brain.

i am goin to do stupid things now...maybe transfer photos from hp and upload on facebook

body:i want to SLEEP!!!
(escapes from the evil clutches of the brain and manage to type 4 words to scream for help)


Friday, October 3, 2008

horoscopes and chocs

in the view of recent cases of melanin poisoning in babies (kidney stones in babies!!!mata terbeliak),i have not check where my Hershey's choc is made from...after finishing half of my choc,onli i go check (very dangerous loh...often i accidentally eat expired products bcos i eat then onli i check.crazy rite?)luckily i found that it is made in brazil (brazil won't be exporting milk from china rite?it's too far =) )then upon checking other choc products tat i have, Hershey is not produced in China! thank god!

regarding horoscopes,this is my horoscope for the day
Virgo: You can't do everything at once, so stop trying! One step at a time. Focus!

since i am abit influence by libra,
Libra: Seriously, you have got to stop worrying. Nothing bad is going to happen, except for stressing yourself out. .

for the virgo part, yes i know i have been onlining alot.i have been listening to music while studying.i wan to do everything at once...sobs...no time d...

for libra part,i am laughing my head off at this.hahahahahahaha
somebody knus wat i m talking about.WINK

Thursday, October 2, 2008

brain freeze

after reading pp, my brain is too saturated. nothing else can go in. wat the ...

to find a positive side, even though there are 10 more days before eos, to be positive...
i google namie amuro's baby don't cry lyrics. (i found out) it has a positive message although it's applied in a different context (love fading away...haha).i always love this song earlier on even though i didn't know the words she is singing (well now i know)

Baby don't cry by namie amuro
Can you remember that?
I remember...

I saw you as I was waiting at the crossing
I remember your blue T-Shirt (I remember that)
Your smile hasn’t changed, it’s been
Exactly 3 years (Time goes by)
As I was about to call out, someone I didn’t know appeared by your side
I looked away, but the sky reflected in my eyes was the same as always

Surely people hide their memories as the seasons go by
Little by little, like this
Until one day when I gather up the tears I’ve cried
And they sparkle in the sun

Yeah, so baby, don’t be sad
Sometimes no matter how much we think about it, we won’t understand
It may be cruel, but the road that stretches ahead of us
Holds our wishes
Even on rainy mornings (Baby don't cry)
Even when love is about to fade (Baby don't cry)
I won’t leave you on your own (Baby don't cry)
Baby don't cry
Always stay by your side

On sleepless nights I keep tossing and turning
And my heart grows forlorn
Heaving a deep sigh (Yeah I know)
Unable to get rid of the anxiety that’s piled up again
Grabbing someone’s hand
Trying to make a connection to the tomorrow I can’t see

But we’re sure to always have the strength
To face the darkness
It’s given to us, we don’t choose
Take a step with your feet

Yeah, so baby, don’t be sad
Sometimes no matter how much we think about it, we won’t understand
It may be cruel, but the road that stretches ahead of us
Holds our wishes
Even on rainy mornings (Baby don't cry)
Even when love is about to fade (Baby don't cry)
I won’t leave you on your own (Baby don't cry)
Baby don't cry
Always stay by your side

There are days (When I lose myself)
When the person in the mirror seems like a different person
(When I need someone's help)
But don’t give up, let me see your smile
Hey, how about seizing the way that’ll turn out right?
Someday a day will come when you can talk with a smile
(Don't cry, cry...)

So come on, baby, hold out your hands
Believe in the light that shines through the clouds
It’ll take away all your worries
It’s all OK now
Even on distant mornings (Baby don't cry)
Even when you lose your love (Baby don't cry)
I won’t leave you on your own (Baby don't cry)
Baby don't cry
Always stay by your side

Baby, don't cry anymore (Baby don't cry yeah)
It's gon' be alright (It's gon' be alright)
Baby, don't cry anymore (Baby, don't cry anymore)
You'll see the sunshine (See the shushine)
Baby, how much longer? (Baby don't baby don't cry)
You've been tryin' alone
(You've been tryin' alone)
Baby, don't cry anymore (Baby, don't cry anymore)
You'll see the sunshine (You'll see the sunshine)

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

mental health

it is said that there are an increasing burden of mental ill health according to pp.

of course lah!make us study pp.sane person will aso go crazy.

i am dedicating another song to the craziness i am feeling now.

Disturbia by rihanna

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
What’s wrong with me?
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Why do I feel like this?
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
I’m going crazy now
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

No more gas in the rig
(Can’t even get it started)
Nothing heard, nothing said
(Can’t even speak about it)
All my life on my head
(Don’t want to think about it)
Feels like I’m going insane
Yeah…

It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It’s too close for comfort

Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Faded pictures on the wall
(It’s like they talkin’ to me)
Disconnectin’ your call
(Your phone don’t even ring)
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It’s too close for comfort
Ohohoh…

It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster
Ohohoh…

Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder (city you like)
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice (think twice)
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise (be wise)
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight, disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like (what you like)
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Disturbia…
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Release me from this curse, I mean
I’m trying to remain tame
But I’m struggling
You can’t go, go, go
I think I’m going to oh, oh, oh

Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight, disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Ohoohhhhh…
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

how crazy (am i goin crazy?)

when i am going crazy,i listened to songs

songs that have the word 'crazy' somehow 'connect' with me

wat am i talking about?

but out of sheer boredom,i google the lyrics of how crazy by yui

guess wat?it's about students,results...here i was thinking that yui is singing about love...well it has 'love love love' in the lyrics(only a smattering of english in the lyrics that i hear,not tat i understand japanese)

i listened more to its beat n music.haha.

here's the translation to english for how crazy by yui.


I shove my cold guitar into its case
There are still a ton of people passing by
But that’s all I feel like doing for today, getting all right

The advice of adults I couldn’t respect
I thought: “I don’t want to be like you”

I get on the subway in my dirty jeans
I see myself reflected in the window
I haven’t changed, I’m still the way I was then

I wish I had a little money

How crazy
Stop talking about me
Like you understand
How crazy
I’ve run off a ship
That was sinking in the deep ocean

Dreams and love love love
I can never stay innocent, how crazy

The stairs that lead up out of the station
Are always dark, and they make me nervous

In the carpark of the convenience stor at sunset
Children who don’t know what tomorrow will bring
Give me a little wave

Give me a hint about how not to give in in the future
I want to persuade them, but the words don’t come out right
It’s no good like this, they don’t get it

Oh, God, I think it’s a little unfair

How crazy
Stop talking about me
Like you understand
How crazy
I’ve run off a ship
That was sinking in the deep ocean

Dreams and love love love
I can never stay innocent, how crazy

Those students keep on trying
But if they don’t get the results, then their families will surely be sad
Even if you say you know how to get on in life
With a life that’s so hard to respect, baby
How much longer are you going to keep carrying around
Those feelings full of contradictions?

How crazy
Stop talking about me
Like you understand
How crazy
I’ve run off a ship
That was sinking in the deep ocean

Dreams and love love love
I can never stay innocent, how crazy

I quietly pick up
My cold guitar again
And sang alone again like I did then

Friday, September 26, 2008

prep talk

amazing how study break can do to my brain.for once, my fei-ness increase again. my blog posts increased again. how i find time and brain waves to blog so much things? this is the excerpts from msn when wenchin asked me to giv her motivation.enjoy ;)

wen chin says:
cyik cyik
wen chin says:
tell me something to make me motivated to study
chinyik says:
u wan the kiasu type of motivation or the cheerful one or the selamba type
wen chin says:
cheerful 1
wen chin says:
kiasu makes me scared
chinyik says:
or do u wan to hear all 3 versions?
chinyik says:
then choose which one suits u best
chinyik says:
i m being in a very fei mood
wen chin says:
be cheerful ma
wen chin says:
be kiasu very xin ku 1 le
chinyik says:
haha okok
chinyik says:
hey jia you jia you in studies. don't worry, everything will work out fine.
wen chin says:
selamba
chinyik says:
ok ah
chinyik says:
here goes
chinyik says:
aiya exam onli mah.study onli loh.nonit gancheong
wen chin says:
oh,, the first one was cheerful 1
wen chin says:
then kiasu 1 how
wen chin says:
everyone already finished studying liao lo u still haven't started u going to die ad la
chinyik says:
oh i was about to say
chinyik says:
eh eh do u knu tat almost everybody finished studying and they are looking at past years. they said past years very hard loh. have u started yet?
chinyik says:
haha
wen chin says:
very inspiring la your pep talk
wen chin says:
I am going to jia you jia you ad

so pharmacy people, let's jia you together!choose any motivation tat suits u best. of course the kiasu motivation is pure fiction. hahaha i agreed with wenchin that being kiasu is very xin ku loh. gambate people!

just a thought

Can I cut myself into two halves? Separate my serious side with my loves-to-have-fun side. Then I can still have all the fun I want and still my serious side will be there studying. I have been giving this serious thought. Anyone knows anyone who can do that for me?

Sometimes I feel like crawling into my blanket and sleep my days away. Sleeping is so therapeutic. The only peaceful moments I enjoyed these few days. However it can’t be said of the dreams that sometimes haunt me whenever I sleep. Or another option is I want to curl up with a book and a hot piping mug of tea and waste my day away. Doing nothingness…blissful! However whenever that time arrives, I will be wondering what I should be doing instead. Sometimes being human, I just couldn’t be satisfied with life has thrown to me. I know I am contradicting myself a lot. I am confused myself. I think I have split personality.

maybe this is what they called libra traits. being indecisive...since i kinda have abit libra traits.even my birthday couldn't be used to determine me as purely virgo or libra. i will be forever stuck in between.luckily i am not born on 23rd sep.even worst!

in the same breath,i shall wish youzhuan and sinwee happy birthday!


Thursday, September 25, 2008

Pasar Ramadan

Pasar Ramadan this year is so disappointing. To be exact, the Pasar Ramadan in Segamat is very very very disappointing. I can’t believe I will said this but I will said it anyway, “I missed Shah Alam section 18’s Pasar Ramadan. I couldn’t find the caramel cake I love to buy during the puasa time back in Shah Alam here in Segamat. There are only two rows of stalls that sells food. TWO ROWS???!!!???!!! That would be like less than half the number of stalls selling scrumptious food in Shah Alam. Where are all the stalls?

Of the paltry food available, I bought one fried chicken, two moist chocolate cake slices, a threesome of small kuihs, rojak, tauhu bakar, roti jala murtabak and meehun. That’s a lot considering only three of us eating =) Rojak and tauhu bakar are a disappointment. Just thinking about it makes me want to go fasting. The sauce that comes with it doesn’t go with the food=(

However, roti jala murtabak is good surprisingly. I have never seen and tried anything like that so curiosity got better of me and I bought it. I did not regret it. It taste just like murtabak but easier to tear compare to murtabak’s skin (made of the dough that used to make roti canai) because the skin is roti jala. Cool, isn’t it? They had the creativity to create this dish. For those lazy people who take forever with their murtabak because it’s need so much chewing.

For dessert, I finished off with the moist chocolate cake slices. Yummylicious! The cake is as sweet as I like it while not too sweet until can dehydrate your throat with a slight bitter chocolaty taste to it. I think the sweetness comes from dates or is it honey? I am not too sure and it cost 40 cents per piece. I think it’s cheap considering it is quite a big piece.

No photo available as it’s all in my stomach now.

Disclaimer: the author does not eat all the food she stated above. She just tried a bite here and there to satisfy her curiosity except for roti jala murtabak which is her dinner=)

when a pharmacy student is bored with health promotion

Herbalism is a topic you don’t want to mess with. I am messing with it. Due to freaking monotonous herbs name, I aim to make sentences out of herbs names and their treatments. Just humour me. I am bored out of my mind.@_@

Here goes:

For preparation for exams, it is best recommended to take herbs to ease anxiety by eating st john’s wort.

If a student has constipation problems, senna, rhubard and aloes are recommended. So student do not have to waste time going to toilet and be stuck there for some time. The time is better spent looking constipated over health promotion book.

Opium, and greater celandine are recommended for coughs but it is not recommended for students to take opium. If taken in large doses, students may get too high and become intoxicated.then no need to take exams.

If the student gets overanxious and end up having diarrhoea during exams (opposite of constipation where too much shit comes out), no fear. It can be treated by eating bilberry and blackcurrant.

Having digestive problems? Chamomile, peppermint, and lemon balm will be there to solve your problems!!! People need to eat to get energy. Same like students who need to eat for their brains to function properly.

Body gets weak when exams are looming. Normal cold medicines cannot be taken by students as it will make the mind drowsy therefore unsuitable for studying. Herbal treatments such as Echinacea, elder flower, blackcurrant, garlic, rose are recommended for influenza and colds. So students still can study while treating their flus!!!

Every student nightmare is forgetting a drug’s name in exam hall but only to recall it after finishing the exam. That’s why it is recommended for students to eat ginkgo biloba. It’s good for memories and it’s proven to help with dementia.

In case one get migraine over studying, have no fear, fever few is there to help! (I can so become one of slogan writers for herbs=) teeheehehe it rhymes!!!).

I don’t think rheumatics applied to students. However it can be cured by dandelion and nettle. Rheumatics is for joint pains rite???rite?rite?ok I am screwed.

Students having exams need to sleep. Sleep is the only way a student can relax after intense studying (last minute, burn midnight oil, whatever). It is so not cool to get insomnia during exam period. Chamomilla, hops, lemon balm, valerian are used as sedatives and sleep inducers for those restless people who couldn’t have a good night sleep.

Of course not forgetting GINSENG which is a tonic to revive a tired body and mind. A must for every students! And expensive also

That’s all for health promotion! Thank you thank you. Applause please! ^^

From homeopathy…(I know I know I jump here and there)

Students are advised to take aconite before taking exam results. It is used to relieve anxiety, distress and fear (almost terror). Taken before and after receiving bad news. If good news, don’t take aconite afterwards. If bad news, take more ;)

Argent nit is used to for feelings of fear and nervousness (but not terror…ermmm dun understand this) especially of anticipatory nature [looming exams]. So students need to take this to soothe exam nerves that often comes with gastro intestinal symptoms (often diarrhoea and insomnia) a very very useful name to learn especially it sound so harry potter-ish.haha.

Health promotion is certainly useful in helping students know what they can take when they are having exams but it is not FUN to study it. Thanks for adding to the load of stuff a pharmacy student need to know. I can’t believe I just wrote all these stuff!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

21st bday

it's 24th of sep.two days has passed since my birthday.and i should blog about my bday.
first of all,i feel very lucky and blessed to have friends that plan a wonderful surprise birthday party for me.i have never expected it.never!never!never!din suspect even one thing.(this means tat i am quite gullible,is it?i am pretty innocent^^)
but then again,it was celebrated way earlier.on the 16th of sep,i was brought to the park by my dearest housemie uz who happily tells me tat in order to destress,let's go park,walk around,try out wat the stalls has to offer(which are not opened btw)...then when i reached the park,uz turn around n said,'sori ya,it was a trick n i hav to blindfold u'.i was blindfolded and hit several times all over my body (actually there's one specific part of my body they targetted but i am not telling where ^^) deng deng deng
was so surprised to see so many people gathered around and not to mention the american choc cake (my fav^^) and my name's initial cy arranged with amazingly delicious fruit tarts by our 'lil' bakers jean n sher!touched~touched~
of course the very next day,went out to gardens and go to italianess to hav an amazing lunch,jus the four of us,me jean ning n uz.wearing my new dress and having such a scrumptious and delicious lunch,wat more can a girl ask?

all in all,life been very good to me lately.i wish it will last forever and more good things will happen to me^^

my parents bought me a new swatch!!!it's like a charm bracelet and i had a really really really delicious chocolate honey somthing something cake!yummy!been gaining all the weight i have lost in imu cup.guilty as charged!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

sinful sunday

after sinfully reading blogs and searching on net for the 'big fight' between dawn yang and xia xue,i was exhausted.
the thing about dawn yang and xia xue is confusing with lots of plagiarism thrown in.i still haven get anything right.me poor brain.my brain is just plain tired.
case in point:
i set my alarm clock to 5.30pm when i slept at 5pm.ermm wat's the point of sleeping half an hour?i seriously seriously think i am going crazier.
even crazier i am listening to kate nash about eating biscuits.haha

jus off my mind
dawn yang is prettier but she looks like an mixed blood chinese girl!
xia xue got more substance in her blog!
amazingly she manage to write about chick stuff without being airhead or foolish herself.

outside is raining.i shall tune myself out.see if i can get another half an hour sleep.

thanks to my cousin,i got a cute star keychain.love love love.it's hanging on my doorknob now.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

nothing to do

been busy busy busy these past few weeks
anguished with health promotion essay
frustrated with biopharm class test
mocked by everchanging weather

today i found myself with nothing to do!!!
i am resting my butt at my apartment alone!

what a girl do when she is bored
turn on tv,watch wateva rubbish show tat is on
so far i hav watched legend of condor heroes, a hokkien show, latino show, a rachelray tv show (not in correct order)
i hav washed half of the clothes lying around my bedroom
i clean up my room a bit.
all these done eventhough i just had 2 piece of sugary biscuits and 1 piece of bread(i have not been eating these few days.i think i lost two inches of my waist)

at 3.30pm,bcos of sheer laziness and don't wan to eat maggi,i went down to buy nasi goreng.
as pak cik is preparing my nasi goreng,i asked how much is the soup?he said rm4 which i said pretty expensive.however i told him i wanted abit of soup to go with my rice.amazingly he told me,'kenapa tak cakap awal-awal.boleh bagi'
hehehe i am happy to be treated so nice.and the soup din cost me anything!i just paid for nasi goreng price.

then after finishing my nasi goreng,went to online.
uz recommend wenchin's blog.
went to read
wenchin left me laughing there like a crazy person
alone
haha di hadi ha
i like the way wenchin writes
i didn;t know that wenchin has been so actively writing blogs.
must go to her page more often
but i malas to link lah.at least wenchin's blog is linked at cynthia's blog
hehe

Saturday, September 6, 2008

emo days

it keep raining for the whole week.
despite all my attempts to keep myself cheerful, now i succumbed to the feeling of emoness.
compounded with the fact that biopharm test is looming ahead and i haven finish studying,i feel my heart beat started to increase and i m having cold feet.
besides that i got tennis competition on that day itself.
which i compulsively agreed to (according to michelle) when challenged by the fact that our group is difficult.no we are not(i think i am being irrational now.aiks.me n my stupid mouth n slow brain)
luckily michelle is there to fei with me.lots of fun in teasing michelle...haha poor thing.
but then.....
i couldn't help being emo with all the rain.
sunshine where are you?i need you.
raining plus japanese songs lagi emo.dun wan to listen to japanese love songs d.
how to study when u r not emotionally stable?

Sunday, August 31, 2008

i am addicted to ...

grey's anatomy!!!instead of doing what i am supposed to be doing ie finishing my health promotion social marketing essay and studying biopharmacy,i am reading quotes from grey's anatomy in facebook.oh i just love the feature!!!below are some of the quotes i love and remember clearly from some memorable scenes in the show.

She's my person. If I murdered someone, she's the person I'd call to help me drag the corpse across the living room floor. She's my person

Knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out of never trying.

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves

The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

I don't give a crap what people think about me because I am a happily independent, successful woman and I like it that way.

Be not afraid of growing slowly. Be afraid only of standing still.

The expected is what keeps us steady. It's the unexpected that changes our lives forever.

Moments. That's all you get with the people you love.
-Denny Duquette

My perfect little life. Have you been paying attention at all?

Dr. Meredith Grey: You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

And sometimes, against all odds, against all logic, we still hope...

I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke.

And this is why some species eat their young.

Alex: "Iz, you didn't want me."
Izzie: "Yeah, but that doesn't mean I want you to want anybody else."

The contest is a lion fight. So, chin up, put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little. Don't lick your wounds, celebrate them
The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor.
you're in a lion fight, just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.

IZZIE: "You need to bond with your people. People are what matters."
MEREDITH: "I hate people."

It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose.

patient's history is as important as their symptoms. It's what helps us decide if heart burn's a heart attack... if a headache's a tumor. Sometimes patients will try to re-write their own histories. They'll claim they don't smoke, or forget to mention certain drugs... which in surgery can be the kiss of death. We can ignore it all we want, but our history eventually always comes back to haunt us

There's a little animal in all of us and maybe that's something to celebrate. Our animal instinct is what makes us seek comfort, warmth, and a pack to run with. We may feel caged...we may feel trapped, but still as humans, we can find ways to feel free.We are each others keepers, we are the guardians of our own humanity and even though theres a beast inside all of us what sets us apart from the animals is that we can think, feel, dream, and love and against all odds, against all instinct, we evolve

We like to think that we are rational beings. Humane. Conscientious. Civilized. Thoughtful. But when things fall apart, even just a little, it becomes clear - we're no better than animals. We have opposable thumbs, we think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream. But deep down, we're all still rooting around in the primordial ooze, biting, lying, scratching out an existence in the cold dark world like the rest of the tree toads and sloths.

Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here's the truth...the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is...everything.

He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told, we've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day, still sometimes we have to see for ourselves, we have to make our own mistakes, we have to learn our own lessons, we have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves that knowing is better than wondering, That waking is better than sleeping and that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistakes beats the hell out of never trying

I'm in love with you. I've been in love withyou... forever. And I know it's a little late. I know it's a little late for me to be tell you that. You have a choice to make. I'm just asking you to take your time. Take all the time you need. Because you have a choice to make. And when I had a choice to make - I chose wrong."

You people are on your own today. I have things to do. Important things. And while I am doing those things, you will remember that whatever your pathetic personal problems, there are people out there with actual problems. And you will ask yourself in every situation: What Would Bailey Do?.... I'm not saying I'm the God. I am saying I am your God. And my wrath is large and painful

Before we were doctors, we were med students, which meant we spend a lot of time of studying chemistry. Organic chemistry, biochemistry, we learned it all. But when you're talking about human chemistry only one thing matters: either you've got it or you don't.

Four years of high school, four years of college, four years of med school. By the time we graduate we're in our late 20s and we've never done anything except go to school and think about science. Time stops. We're socially retarded. Ha, I mean, look at me, I'm in love with a guy who won't say he loves me back and here I am, in his kitchen, just hoping he comes home and notices me. I'm that girl, who sits in the back of the class and eats her hair. And Meredith she's 17 years old, we're all 17 years old. This is high school with scalpels, Finn.

Mark: "Do you ever feel old?"
Derek: "I'm young. I'm a fetus."
Mark: "Nah, I mean you ever feel like there's gonna be a time when new techniques pass you by?"
Derek: "I'm a genius and a scholar."
Mark: "Shut up.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

a silly thing to do when u r sleepy

when u r sleepy, don't do spill your chocolate drink.you will spend helluva a time moping up everything and in the end u will be so awake,u dun hav anything to do now. wat a great way to start a day!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

yellow yellow imu

want to go back home after pp essay.went down,saw yellow tshirt.tot is pharmacy A tshirt.look closer.orientation tshirt.oh no yellow again?
go to atrium,more yellow.nice design though.
walking to vista b.saw bread man selling bread with his usual yellow 'containers' with a bunch of juniors wearing the same yellow tshirt.practicali they blended nicely with his yellow 'containers'.
laugh all the way back.near swimming pool,saw yellow tshirt again...
laugh all the way to lift...
hahaha

one thing come to mind
digi man
'i will follow you...'

Monday, August 25, 2008

me backie!

this blog will be automatically updated when i update my multiply blog.so i am active back again!!!=)

Sunday, August 24, 2008

yellow tshirt

i used to hav every imaginable colour in the world tshirts in my wardrobe.well that was years and years ago.now i only got mostly black and white with beige,pink,purple,green in between.but yellow,as in bright yellow?no never no no.however to support our pharmacy A imu cup,i bought it just for the sake of buying it.confirm noone will accidentally knock into you at night.one,it is bright yellow.even no light aso can see a yellow tshirt floating around.two,there's a stop sign behind the tshirt.people who passed their driving exams sure recognise the sign one.
please forgive the grammar mistake printed.we are trying to be cheeky here.
support pharmacy!!!
malaysia boleh!!!
merdeka is coming
but i m not goin be merdekaing so fast...sobs

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

a new year, a new blog

i am shifting my blog to www.xanga.com/cyik87
my original blog in multiply shall remain active
while this blog will be on a freeze for a while
till i figure out what to do with it
cyik87
sayonara