how crazy (am i goin crazy?)

when i am going crazy,i listened to songs

songs that have the word 'crazy' somehow 'connect' with me

wat am i talking about?

but out of sheer boredom,i google the lyrics of how crazy by yui

guess wat?it's about students,results...here i was thinking that yui is singing about love...well it has 'love love love' in the lyrics(only a smattering of english in the lyrics that i hear,not tat i understand japanese)

i listened more to its beat n music.haha.

here's the translation to english for how crazy by yui.

I shove my cold guitar into its case
There are still a ton of people passing by
But that’s all I feel like doing for today, getting all right

The advice of adults I couldn’t respect
I thought: “I don’t want to be like you”

I get on the subway in my dirty jeans
I see myself reflected in the window
I haven’t changed, I’m still the way I was then

I wish I had a little money

How crazy
Stop talking about me
Like you understand
How crazy
I’ve run off a ship
That was sinking in the deep ocean

Dreams and love love love
I can never stay innocent, how crazy

The stairs that lead up out of the station
Are always dark, and they make me nervous

In the carpark of the convenience stor at sunset
Children who don’t know what tomorrow will bring
Give me a little wave

Give me a hint about how not to give in in the future
I want to persuade them, but the words don’t come out right
It’s no good like this, they don’t get it

Oh, God, I think it’s a little unfair

How crazy
Stop talking about me
Like you understand
How crazy
I’ve run off a ship
That was sinking in the deep ocean

Dreams and love love love
I can never stay innocent, how crazy

Those students keep on trying
But if they don’t get the results, then their families will surely be sad
Even if you say you know how to get on in life
With a life that’s so hard to respect, baby
How much longer are you going to keep carrying around
Those feelings full of contradictions?

How crazy
Stop talking about me
Like you understand
How crazy
I’ve run off a ship
That was sinking in the deep ocean

Dreams and love love love
I can never stay innocent, how crazy

I quietly pick up
My cold guitar again
And sang alone again like I did then

prep talk

amazing how study break can do to my brain.for once, my fei-ness increase again. my blog posts increased again. how i find time and brain waves to blog so much things? this is the excerpts from msn when wenchin asked me to giv her motivation.enjoy ;)

wen chin says:
cyik cyik
wen chin says:
tell me something to make me motivated to study
chinyik says:
u wan the kiasu type of motivation or the cheerful one or the selamba type
wen chin says:
cheerful 1
wen chin says:
kiasu makes me scared
chinyik says:
or do u wan to hear all 3 versions?
chinyik says:
then choose which one suits u best
chinyik says:
i m being in a very fei mood
wen chin says:
be cheerful ma
wen chin says:
be kiasu very xin ku 1 le
chinyik says:
haha okok
chinyik says:
hey jia you jia you in studies. don't worry, everything will work out fine.
wen chin says:
selamba
chinyik says:
ok ah
chinyik says:
here goes
chinyik says:
aiya exam onli mah.study onli loh.nonit gancheong
wen chin says:
oh,, the first one was cheerful 1
wen chin says:
then kiasu 1 how
wen chin says:
everyone already finished studying liao lo u still haven't started u going to die ad la
chinyik says:
oh i was about to say
chinyik says:
eh eh do u knu tat almost everybody finished studying and they are looking at past years. they said past years very hard loh. have u started yet?
chinyik says:
haha
wen chin says:
very inspiring la your pep talk
wen chin says:
I am going to jia you jia you ad

so pharmacy people, let's jia you together!choose any motivation tat suits u best. of course the kiasu motivation is pure fiction. hahaha i agreed with wenchin that being kiasu is very xin ku loh. gambate people!

just a thought

Can I cut myself into two halves? Separate my serious side with my loves-to-have-fun side. Then I can still have all the fun I want and still my serious side will be there studying. I have been giving this serious thought. Anyone knows anyone who can do that for me?

Sometimes I feel like crawling into my blanket and sleep my days away. Sleeping is so therapeutic. The only peaceful moments I enjoyed these few days. However it can’t be said of the dreams that sometimes haunt me whenever I sleep. Or another option is I want to curl up with a book and a hot piping mug of tea and waste my day away. Doing nothingness…blissful! However whenever that time arrives, I will be wondering what I should be doing instead. Sometimes being human, I just couldn’t be satisfied with life has thrown to me. I know I am contradicting myself a lot. I am confused myself. I think I have split personality.

maybe this is what they called libra traits. being indecisive...since i kinda have abit libra traits.even my birthday couldn't be used to determine me as purely virgo or libra. i will be forever stuck in between.luckily i am not born on 23rd sep.even worst!

in the same breath,i shall wish youzhuan and sinwee happy birthday!

Pasar Ramadan

Pasar Ramadan this year is so disappointing. To be exact, the Pasar Ramadan in Segamat is very very very disappointing. I can’t believe I will said this but I will said it anyway, “I missed Shah Alam section 18’s Pasar Ramadan. I couldn’t find the caramel cake I love to buy during the puasa time back in Shah Alam here in Segamat. There are only two rows of stalls that sells food. TWO ROWS???!!!???!!! That would be like less than half the number of stalls selling scrumptious food in Shah Alam. Where are all the stalls?

Of the paltry food available, I bought one fried chicken, two moist chocolate cake slices, a threesome of small kuihs, rojak, tauhu bakar, roti jala murtabak and meehun. That’s a lot considering only three of us eating =) Rojak and tauhu bakar are a disappointment. Just thinking about it makes me want to go fasting. The sauce that comes with it doesn’t go with the food=(

However, roti jala murtabak is good surprisingly. I have never seen and tried anything like that so curiosity got better of me and I bought it. I did not regret it. It taste just like murtabak but easier to tear compare to murtabak’s skin (made of the dough that used to make roti canai) because the skin is roti jala. Cool, isn’t it? They had the creativity to create this dish. For those lazy people who take forever with their murtabak because it’s need so much chewing.

For dessert, I finished off with the moist chocolate cake slices. Yummylicious! The cake is as sweet as I like it while not too sweet until can dehydrate your throat with a slight bitter chocolaty taste to it. I think the sweetness comes from dates or is it honey? I am not too sure and it cost 40 cents per piece. I think it’s cheap considering it is quite a big piece.

No photo available as it’s all in my stomach now.

Disclaimer: the author does not eat all the food she stated above. She just tried a bite here and there to satisfy her curiosity except for roti jala murtabak which is her dinner=)

when a pharmacy student is bored with health promotion

Herbalism is a topic you don’t want to mess with. I am messing with it. Due to freaking monotonous herbs name, I aim to make sentences out of herbs names and their treatments. Just humour me. I am bored out of my mind.@_@

Here goes:

For preparation for exams, it is best recommended to take herbs to ease anxiety by eating st john’s wort.

If a student has constipation problems, senna, rhubard and aloes are recommended. So student do not have to waste time going to toilet and be stuck there for some time. The time is better spent looking constipated over health promotion book.

Opium, and greater celandine are recommended for coughs but it is not recommended for students to take opium. If taken in large doses, students may get too high and become intoxicated.then no need to take exams.

If the student gets overanxious and end up having diarrhoea during exams (opposite of constipation where too much shit comes out), no fear. It can be treated by eating bilberry and blackcurrant.

Having digestive problems? Chamomile, peppermint, and lemon balm will be there to solve your problems!!! People need to eat to get energy. Same like students who need to eat for their brains to function properly.

Body gets weak when exams are looming. Normal cold medicines cannot be taken by students as it will make the mind drowsy therefore unsuitable for studying. Herbal treatments such as Echinacea, elder flower, blackcurrant, garlic, rose are recommended for influenza and colds. So students still can study while treating their flus!!!

Every student nightmare is forgetting a drug’s name in exam hall but only to recall it after finishing the exam. That’s why it is recommended for students to eat ginkgo biloba. It’s good for memories and it’s proven to help with dementia.

In case one get migraine over studying, have no fear, fever few is there to help! (I can so become one of slogan writers for herbs=) teeheehehe it rhymes!!!).

I don’t think rheumatics applied to students. However it can be cured by dandelion and nettle. Rheumatics is for joint pains rite???rite?rite?ok I am screwed.

Students having exams need to sleep. Sleep is the only way a student can relax after intense studying (last minute, burn midnight oil, whatever). It is so not cool to get insomnia during exam period. Chamomilla, hops, lemon balm, valerian are used as sedatives and sleep inducers for those restless people who couldn’t have a good night sleep.

Of course not forgetting GINSENG which is a tonic to revive a tired body and mind. A must for every students! And expensive also

That’s all for health promotion! Thank you thank you. Applause please! ^^

From homeopathy…(I know I know I jump here and there)

Students are advised to take aconite before taking exam results. It is used to relieve anxiety, distress and fear (almost terror). Taken before and after receiving bad news. If good news, don’t take aconite afterwards. If bad news, take more ;)

Argent nit is used to for feelings of fear and nervousness (but not terror…ermmm dun understand this) especially of anticipatory nature [looming exams]. So students need to take this to soothe exam nerves that often comes with gastro intestinal symptoms (often diarrhoea and insomnia) a very very useful name to learn especially it sound so harry potter-ish.haha.

Health promotion is certainly useful in helping students know what they can take when they are having exams but it is not FUN to study it. Thanks for adding to the load of stuff a pharmacy student need to know. I can’t believe I just wrote all these stuff!

21st bday

it's 24th of sep.two days has passed since my birthday.and i should blog about my bday.
first of all,i feel very lucky and blessed to have friends that plan a wonderful surprise birthday party for me.i have never expected it.never!never!never!din suspect even one thing.(this means tat i am quite gullible,is it?i am pretty innocent^^)
but then again,it was celebrated way earlier.on the 16th of sep,i was brought to the park by my dearest housemie uz who happily tells me tat in order to destress,let's go park,walk around,try out wat the stalls has to offer(which are not opened btw)...then when i reached the park,uz turn around n said,'sori ya,it was a trick n i hav to blindfold u'.i was blindfolded and hit several times all over my body (actually there's one specific part of my body they targetted but i am not telling where ^^) deng deng deng
was so surprised to see so many people gathered around and not to mention the american choc cake (my fav^^) and my name's initial cy arranged with amazingly delicious fruit tarts by our 'lil' bakers jean n sher!touched~touched~
of course the very next day,went out to gardens and go to italianess to hav an amazing lunch,jus the four of us,me jean ning n uz.wearing my new dress and having such a scrumptious and delicious lunch,wat more can a girl ask?

all in all,life been very good to me lately.i wish it will last forever and more good things will happen to me^^

my parents bought me a new swatch!!!it's like a charm bracelet and i had a really really really delicious chocolate honey somthing something cake!yummy!been gaining all the weight i have lost in imu cup.guilty as charged!

sinful sunday

after sinfully reading blogs and searching on net for the 'big fight' between dawn yang and xia xue,i was exhausted.
the thing about dawn yang and xia xue is confusing with lots of plagiarism thrown in.i still haven get anything right.me poor brain.my brain is just plain tired.
case in point:
i set my alarm clock to 5.30pm when i slept at 5pm.ermm wat's the point of sleeping half an hour?i seriously seriously think i am going crazier.
even crazier i am listening to kate nash about eating biscuits.haha

jus off my mind
dawn yang is prettier but she looks like an mixed blood chinese girl!
xia xue got more substance in her blog!
amazingly she manage to write about chick stuff without being airhead or foolish herself.

outside is raining.i shall tune myself out.see if i can get another half an hour sleep.

thanks to my cousin,i got a cute star keychain.love love love.it's hanging on my doorknob now.

nothing to do

been busy busy busy these past few weeks
anguished with health promotion essay
frustrated with biopharm class test
mocked by everchanging weather

today i found myself with nothing to do!!!
i am resting my butt at my apartment alone!

what a girl do when she is bored
turn on tv,watch wateva rubbish show tat is on
so far i hav watched legend of condor heroes, a hokkien show, latino show, a rachelray tv show (not in correct order)
i hav washed half of the clothes lying around my bedroom
i clean up my room a bit.
all these done eventhough i just had 2 piece of sugary biscuits and 1 piece of bread(i have not been eating these few days.i think i lost two inches of my waist)

at 3.30pm,bcos of sheer laziness and don't wan to eat maggi,i went down to buy nasi goreng.
as pak cik is preparing my nasi goreng,i asked how much is the soup?he said rm4 which i said pretty expensive.however i told him i wanted abit of soup to go with my rice.amazingly he told me,'kenapa tak cakap awal-awal.boleh bagi'
hehehe i am happy to be treated so nice.and the soup din cost me anything!i just paid for nasi goreng price.

then after finishing my nasi goreng,went to online.
uz recommend wenchin's blog.
went to read
wenchin left me laughing there like a crazy person
alone
haha di hadi ha
i like the way wenchin writes
i didn;t know that wenchin has been so actively writing blogs.
must go to her page more often
but i malas to link lah.at least wenchin's blog is linked at cynthia's blog
hehe

emo days

it keep raining for the whole week.
despite all my attempts to keep myself cheerful, now i succumbed to the feeling of emoness.
compounded with the fact that biopharm test is looming ahead and i haven finish studying,i feel my heart beat started to increase and i m having cold feet.
besides that i got tennis competition on that day itself.
which i compulsively agreed to (according to michelle) when challenged by the fact that our group is difficult.no we are not(i think i am being irrational now.aiks.me n my stupid mouth n slow brain)
luckily michelle is there to fei with me.lots of fun in teasing michelle...haha poor thing.
but then.....
i couldn't help being emo with all the rain.
sunshine where are you?i need you.
raining plus japanese songs lagi emo.dun wan to listen to japanese love songs d.
how to study when u r not emotionally stable?